want

i've been such a sexual fiend lately. Although I've been separated from the one (or two, or three!..) people I've had sexual contacts with, I feel like I've been having great sex. Although right now, I'm alone in my bed (or couch, or kitchen, or floor, or beach, or park, or subway car, and on and on). It still feels like I've been swapping saliva and sweat and more with someones.

i've been really feeling the sexual fetish thing lately. At a sex store in Ptown, the whips and belts made me itch to use them on someone. I've been looking at some of the weirder types of Japanese porn, and I find some of it really hot.

like the "lesbian rape bus," where a marauding bus full of mean lesbian girls stops at a regular bus stop and picks up an unsuspecting school girl. The girls on the bus then sexually haze the poor school girl, rape her, and spit in her face repeatedly. (the spitting is really hot) Now, with the Japanese legends of lesbian hazing (read some Murakami or Yoshimoto) putting the context of the spitting in place, it becomes hotter. I like the mean and bullying attitude of the girls on the bus. From both points of view, it's hot. It's all staged, but really well

i'm a switch.

this video makes me want several things:

a) to be sexually mean and controlling to some girl, spit in her face, fight her resistance, slap her face, and make her beg. (I need a kinky bottom)

b) to be sexually controlled by a group of incredibly mean (not spitting) gay men who make me give them serial blowjobs (yummy!)

c) to be sexually hazed by a group (or just one) of incredibly mean (spitting) girls (and I don't mean in every straight male's fantasy of being "serviced" by a zillion girls at one, but more of being slapped around and having other girls' pleasure matter more than my own)

d) to take some "unwilling" girl to an almost public place, and maybe use the public area to really humiliate her sexually.

e) remote controlled vibrator/egg on the subway?

f) candle wax. Me dripping it on someone.

g) that's not to mention my zelophilia and some other things I already know

yeah, I know bottoms like you exist out there. (the safe word is "milk") I guess I like being controlling to bottoms more then merely servicing them while they lie tied up. So if you think you're a good bottom because you're lazy and motionless, you're wrong! Resist! Beg! Beg! Resist!

leather? Not much as far as I know. Bondange: to take advantage of bottoms.

also: blood? Maybe..?

and some things I could never do: feces, urine, (my)anal penetration, animals, family.
More power to people who like that stuff though.
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since my partner's pleasure matters so much to me, I'd better find the right people before exploring these things. Such a strange duality I have sometimes. Trust, yes, trust.